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March 18, 2011

Just Trust...


Today was a Sunday. I love Sundays. I truly look so forward to them and I just wait to see what God has in store, to carry me through the upcoming week.

This week He had a lot.

Can I just encourage you that if you don't attend Church or have a Church home, you should find one. My Church is my other family, and some days I don't know what I would do without them. Especially when I'm going through a hard time in my life, like now.

So as I headed to Church this Sunday morning, I was feeling pretty good. It had been a nice encouraging weekend. I taught my class and made my way downstairs, eager to hear what my Pastor was going to preach on that day.

Just before the service, the sweetest thing happened.

Our Deacon walked to the pulpit and started to make an announcement.
He started telling the Church that our family (Rick's sister's Annette and Becky along with their husbands, and Rick's Mom and Dad) wanted to do something to honor our Madeline. So, they ordered new hymn books with a dedication to Maddie on the front of them.

Wow! What an honor!

He presented one of these precious hymnals to Rick and I in front of the congregation, and made mention of our sweet girl.

Rick and I were both in tears(of course) but it was so special for us.

I don't think there could be a more special way to honor our precious little girl. Rick and I were so encouraged and with this wonderful blessing.

Rick and I thought she would be musical and maybe a singer because of all the "bird" signs God gave me in my pregnancy.(that and the fact that Rick and Annette are amazing singers :)They would never admit it, but they are both so good!

Anyway, we will never know, but I am sure that her beautiful voice is ringing all over Heaven. Oh, I can't wait until the day that I can hear her sing.

Down here, she will be remembered as we sing unto God the hymns that were written for His praise.

I love the idea of that. =)

Here's a picture of the new Hymn book.

It says "In honor of Madeline Grace Ross"

I LOVE IT! Thank you Annette, Adam, Becky, Joel, Mom and Dad.
Rick and I will be forever grateful that you have done this for us.

So... After I pulled myself together, I was ready to see how else God was going to speak to me that morning.

My Pastor preached about David out of Psalms 143, and of course it was EXACTLY what I needed to hear. =)

His message was on "How to get the Victory."

Some of the things he mentioned, I just had to share with all of you because they helped me so much...

The verse starts out with David asking God... Psalms 1: Hear my prayer, O Lord, give ear to my supplications: in thy faithfulness answer me, and in thy righteousness..

That is my prayer too. I love this chapter. I listened as he read..

[2] And enter not into judgment with thy servant: for in thy sight shall no man living be justified.

[3] For the enemy hath persecuted my soul; he hath smitten my life down to the ground; he hath made me to dwell in darkness, as those that have been long dead.

This next verse really resonated with me.

[4] Therefore is my spirit overwhelmed within me; my heart within me is desolate.

[5] I remember the days of old; I meditate on all thy works; I muse on the work of thy hands.

[6] I stretch forth my hands unto thee: my soul thirsteth after thee, as a thirsty land. Selah.

And I also pray this so often...

[7] Hear me speedily, O LORD: my spirit faileth: hide not thy face from me, lest I be like unto them that go down into the pit.

[8] Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto thee.

I want to know this Lord, teach me the way I should walk.

[9] Deliver me, O LORD, from mine enemies: I flee unto thee to hide me.

This is also my prayer.

[10] Teach me to do thy will; for thou art my God: thy spirit is good; lead me into the land of uprightness.

[11] Quicken me, O LORD, for thy name's sake: for thy righteousness' sake bring my soul out of trouble.

[12] And of thy mercy cut off mine enemies, and destroy all them that afflict my soul: for I am thy servant.

What a passage! What beautiful words.

I know I don't usually share a whole passage of scripture, but this one is just too wonderful to leave any verses out.

I love the prayers that David prayed.

I love how human he was.

I love that He kept going back to God, over and over again.

I love that he asked for direction.

I love that he asked for help.

I love that he said "I AM" thy servant.

I feel like everything that was written here is so much of how I feel so often. As my Pastor went over all these different things, I was learning just how to get the victory.

He was showing us in the scripture, what David used to help him. And in doing so, it helped me tremendously.

One thing he said that really stuck with me was this...
"When you learn to trust God, you can be victorious!"

What a statement! It is something I know, yet have failed to do so often.

Just Trust!

Trust God in everything.

He is trusting me enough to go through this, so I need to trust Him to carry me.

No, it's not easy, but it's much easier if I'm trusting in the only One who can get me through.

Yet, so many days, I try to blame myself. I try to carry myself, just to bring me to the place where I have to go back to God.

I was learning once again, to trust.

Just Trust.

God has a great plan for my life, I know. And some days when people ask me how I'm getting through, there is only ever one answer.

It's all God, all the time.

I just have to trust in Him that He loves me, and He has a perfect plan for me. I already know this is true.

I know that may be hard to read, but it's true. Of course my plan wouldn't have been to let go of my daughter, but, His plan is best.

I wonder sometimes if I was spared from something worse down the road. I just don't know. Sometimes God's ways are just past finding out. Believe me, I've tried. I have had so many questions, but now I've learned that I won't get the answers, until Heaven.

I don't want to live a defeated life, I want to be victorious.

I'm so glad that on this Sunday, my Pastor showed me how to.

Through the life of David, I'm learning just how to be victorious, and just how much I need to trust in God.

What a blessing.

God really worked in my heart through this passage of scripture. I hope He worked in yours too.

I'm so thankful for Church and the Bible. They are such an encouragement and a comfort in my life.

God is good.

Always, God is good. I'm so thankful that I have my trust in Him.

And I hope that you do too. =)


  1. What a beautiful message to wake up to this morning:) You never cease to amaze me Natalie!!! Have a great day and weekend:)
    Rachell Barnett

  2. I love the Psalms, and how they so often fit in right where you need them. --- Megan

  3. Thank you so much for sharing your heart. Again, just what I needed to read today!

  4. Thanks so much for this blog it has helped me alot...the past few months I have been defeated but as I read my bible and pray I truely hope to be victorious

  5. AMEN!!!! Thanks for the lesson. I have a hard time understanding his word alot of times but you made it so simple for me tonight! Thanks!
    BTW - LOVE the Hymn book! You are BLESSED!!!!
    **Still keeping you in my daily prayers too!!

  6. Hello Natalie,
    I just wanted to thank you for sharing your heart with all of us. I lost my Daddy almost 8 months ago. He was only 57 years old and it was such a shock. So, your posts have been very helpful and very encouraging to me. I also wanted you to know that they have helped me trememdously in my walk with the Lord. I had the opportunity to speak to the ladies in our church tonight during a fellowship. Your post about the eagle message really sparked an interest in me. So, I used pieces of it in my lesson. I think the Lord really used that lesson tonight, and I believe you were a part of it. I never had the opportunity to meet Maddie Grace, but I feel like I did through you. I have a 2 year old, named Anna Grace. I love the name Grace! I have been praying for you and I ask you to continue to encourage all of us.
    Love in the Lord,

  7. I don't know how to convey my heart here, other than to say I have been so touched by your story; I feel like I've known you for years. You write so beautifully, and your love for your daughter is so evident...your faith in the Lord just shines through. I wish I was able to give you a hug and take you out for coffee. Please keep blogging- though my own initial grief over my daughter's diagnosis was nothing compared to yours, I can tell you that writing is very therapeutic...and so good for our souls. Love to you, sweet mama.