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October 23, 2012

Standing in Grace..

Every now and then there are moments I experience that take my breath away.

...Walking down the isle towards my Husband on my wedding day.

...Two lines showing up in a moment of anticipation.

...Kissing the cheek of my firstborn child, and every child after that.

...And standing on a piece of land that holds our "future" and will one day be our home.

All of these are priceless and precious to me.

Those are the moments where I wish I could just "freeze" time.

If only it could slow down a little.

I strive to live my life always remembering and being thankful for "those" moments.

These sweet memories and opportunities that the Lord has graciously blessed me with will always remind me to be thankful. Hopeful.

I remember vividly when I was expecting little Madeline Grace. I remember the joy that filled me thinking of her joining our family. I remember being so excited to finally have a daughter and watch her grow up.

So many dreams.

And though those dreams never came to be, she was and is still my daughter. My little girl.

My sweet Maddie Grace.

This is the last and only family photo shoot she was physically in and it will always be precious to me.

But, what's more precious... Is the way God works.
His hand is beautiful.
His grace is beautiful.
Never, never would I have thought exactly 2 falls after this photograph was taken, where we would be.
Our sweet Madeline is absent from our arms, but she is ever present in our hearts.
And now, an extra little blessing we never expected is here with our family. 
He is in our lives, in our arms.
He is providing new hope every day.
But that is not the only blessing God has given us; and how grateful we are for the other rainbow in our life.
Our land.
Our beautiful blessing from above, Amazing Grace Farm.
So as we stood on this land and had another beautiful family photo session captured, we remembered.
God's grace is sufficient.
Every. Day.
As we hold hands and walk across the piece of paradise God has so graciously given. We know.
His love is amazing.
And so is His grace.
Sweet sweet. Amazing. Grace.
Oh how thankful we are for the grace of God.
And for His Abundant blessings..
You see, when we were approached with purchasing this land (the land God truly put in place just for us) We stood here, under this very tree and we prayed.
We prayed for direction and understanding. We prayed God's will would be done.
We stood there again after we purchased it, and we prayed God would bless this land and use us and this land for His glory...
Just because we've been through much heartache and a great loss, doesn't mean we deserve anything. Yet God has chose to bless us and for that; we are grateful.
We prayed for God's will in our lives and it was that day that He gave us peace; about this land, about Maddie Grace.
Every time now, when we walk across this field, we remember.
We think of her and we praise Him.
As we build our home and watch our little boys grow into men there, we will remember her.
She may not physically grow there with us, but she is there with us.
She is such a part of our journey there, and I truly believe because of our faithfulness to God during the trial of losing her, He has blessed us greatly with this.
 I just love that she was photographed with us there on this land, on our future.
I never foresaw this...
(Notice Maddie's little shoes)
But I'm thankful for it.
I'm thankful for Jonah.
For strength. For love. For grace, and hope.
We will one day look back at these pictures and say; this was the fall that Jonah was here.
Smiling. Laughing. Enjoying our family.
As we are so enjoying him.
What a sweet blessing this little rainbow is!
What will God's plans be for him?
What plans does God have for these little feet?
And for our entire family..
Noah Riley (7)

Elijah Braden (4)
We are thanking God for these precious blessings.
And that He's helping to heal all our hearts and make us stronger than ever...
Sure we will always miss her. They still talk and ask of her constantly.
But we are happy.

Sometimes God can use brokenness for so much good.
For we cannot be truly whole, without Him.
2 Corinthians 12:9
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
We are so grateful for these three little boys.
We love each of their personalities... and their hearts.

I'll never take these boys for granted.
Oh how precious they are to me.
And Oh how grateful I am for this man. He is my everything.
I am blessed with so much love!
We continue to live every day to the fullest.
And to stand... in grace.
For our Maddie, for our Lord.
Romans 5
1 Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our
Lord Jesus Christ:
By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein
 we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.
3 And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that
 tribulation worketh patience;
4 And patience, experience; and experience, hope:
5 And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed
abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.
Peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ:

Much Love,


A special thank you to my sweet Leah of Precious Photography for
continuing to walk with us and photograph us along the way. We love
you and cherish our friendship. Your pictures are always a blessing and
will always be a treasure to our family.





  1. Love this post. You have such a wonderful way of expressing yourself. I pray that God continues to bless your family and use Maddie to bring others to know Him. Sending my love your way!!!

  2. Beautiful post and so uplifting to my day! Thank you!

  3. Hi Natalie,
    I am posting on your site again, even though I don't even know you. :) I feel like I do, because our stories are very much the same. I had not heard of another mom losing a baby girl at 2 days old until you-- just last week. I am thankful because the Lord has used your story to give my heart a some much needed peace. We left the E.R. in June this year with no reasons why our baby girl stopped breathing and even 6 weeks later, still had no answers. They labeled it as SIDS.
    Anyway, Greyson (our baby girl) was our first, so it left a lot of doubts in my heart for our next. I am thankful that you were able to work through all of those doubts and that the Lord gave you a healthy baby boy after Maddie. My hubs and I are still unfortunately trying and still trying to remain hopeful for a healthy baby very soon. But, again I am thankful for your testimony and the little bits of hope that He has given me through you. :)