God doesn't send replacements, but He does send reinforcements:)
Aren't those wonderful words? So much depth there.
My sweet friend Jennie had noticed I was really struggling this week with missing Madeline. She has been messaging me and sending me such comfort through her words of wisdom and experience all week long.
This quote was just many of the wonderful things she shared with me and I'm so grateful.
I wish I could just re-type everything she wrote me, she is a beautiful writer, but I do want to share something she wrote...
"These tears, sweet friend, will heal your heart. When you run to Him, he will heal. Take note of your tears, for God does. Notice when you weep to Him you become victorious. You may see this day as a failure, but it is, indeed, a victory."
Yesterday was a victory?
Yesterday was a victory.
The word victory, (to me) used to be a word I spelled out during cheers, while cheering for my local Football team back in high school. Back then, the big victory was to win the game. Plain and simple.
Now, for me, the victory is to get through my new life. And guess what? I'm getting the victory!
I guess in the moment, I didn't see it that way, but it was. I got through another day. I am another day stronger. I am another day wiser. I have won another battle between my broken heart and living life!
Let me be honest, I cry a lot. I cry over Maddie Grace. But, not one of my tears have gone unnoticed, God saw them all. He has counted them all. He knows my thoughts before I think them. He knows my heart.
If you have been reading my blog for a while now, you know it is in my weakest moments that God always shows up. Through my Bible, through someone, through something... He shows up to comfort me.
This week, He has shown up through others who have taken the time to pour comfort and care into me.
I love these verses...
2 Corinthians 1:3-4 Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort: Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.
I felt yesterday, very comforted. Comforted by friends and family. Comforted by those who have "been there." And even those who haven't.
As I read the words of a sweet friend that I have met and gotten to know through Madeline's little life, I was comforted. I was encouraged. I was getting the victory of being down.
Then this morning, I woke up ready to take on the day. I was happy. I was smiling. It was a good day.
I went on to read some AMAZING comments on my blog from such sweet, wonderful, comforting people. Along with numerous wonderful inboxes on facebook. Every word that was written has helped me to day. Every word that was written, has given me strength to push forward again.
I am so thankful that so many, go so out of there way to help me and comfort me. I just hope when faced with a situation like this, I can repay the favor in sharing helpful and comforting words as well. I am blessed.
Today is a good day! Today, I have gotten the victory, again.
One last thing. Last night, my husband brought home the sweetest thing that his Mom had found for me. When I called to thank her today, she told me they had been at the Christian bookstore and were leaving when she saw it in the window. She said she knew she just HAD to get it for me. I'm glad she did. =)
Here's a pic of the blessing she sent my way.
Today I'm full of hope as I have gotten another victory on this road of life.
I love the opening comments here. I love this post! You are so comforting to share such things.
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Hi Natalie,
ReplyDeleteI saw your comment on my blog and just wanted to extend my deepest sympathies to you and your family. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll never understand SIDS and why any family ever has to experience it. I'm so thankful that you have faith and that you are leaning on our Lord to get you through. If you ever need to talk...I'm here. Praying for you and your family, and remembering your precious little girl.
Natalie,
ReplyDeleteI have been reading your blog for a few weeks now, I found it through Kellie Staats blog Another Day Stronger. I think that this adorable little bird is a gift from your beautiful birdie girl. I can not wait to find out if this amazing blessing of life growing within you is another beautiful little girl. It seems that you have had many signs and they are all so precious.
You have an amazing spirit and your words show how sincere your heart is. Always live life to the fullest and love like crazy, for the moments we have are fleeting but the memories last forever.
Praise God!!! The song that came to mind while I was reading your blog is called "Victory Is Mine". It is an awesome song and some of the words say: Victory is mine, Victory is mine, Victory today is mine, I told satan, to get thee behind, because Victory today is mine. I love that song because I know that Victory is ours as long as we have God. Praying for you. So glad your day was great!!! Hope you have many more to come:)
ReplyDeleteYou have surely shown that God shows up. I am thankful for your blog and how you share your heart. I'm still praying for you through all of this. Victory is yours!!!
ReplyDeleteLove and Prayers!
Becky
Natalie, I looked for a contact button, but didn't see one...would you email me when you have a moment? Thank you!!
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